Much obliged

Realize that those who swore they wouldn’t leave, left. Betrayal, solitary confinement, forgotten, alone… Few words I can get out on what I’ve gone through these few years. I haven’t seen my family in years, 11 to be exact. I used to think being accompanied by a significant other was everything, until I was…. You notice greed, jealous, empathy and sympathy.

What do I mean? Whenever you’re the one providing happiness for another they get comfortable. You’re no longer that person that makes them happy but rather an object. You feel left out. Miserable and forced to accomodations you’d never enforce. Speaking from the bottom where they left me, I’ve seen that love turn into hate. How? By constantly being what they don’t want you to be, yourself. By attempting to justify the previous algorithm produced before being accompanied. You can never be you or the person you want to be when you’re in a relationship. I made sure to realize I’m going to be alone forever. Being alone causes that. You learn that being accompanied takes you away from you. Being alone rather makes you feel more comfortable with yourself. I’m going to start reading more on independent self growth. There nothing like being alone. You learn about more qualities on yourself. You get the comprehensive assurance of who you really are. Being accompanied takes it all away. Believe me, I’ve found the love of my 3-4 times, there can’t be a 5th. If there is, why did I have to go through all the pain and sane that I went through? Wishing that the answer pops up in my head soon, I’ll keep you all posted on how my process goes. This can’t be left alone.

Realize you’re the only one on your team.